hello, I like bathtubs, rubber duckies, faeries,magic,water,pretty things, and beautiful souls.I'm me, I'm not you or them or it or her or him. I AM ME. I am on a spiritual journey to learn about me and to learn to love me. I will pretty much post whatever I like, I have no "ship" or "genre
and I have a pretty open mind. So welcome!
I don’t have any of the pregnancy symptoms they talk about. No morning sickness, my boobs aren’t sore.. They say I have another week or two before I get hit with those symptoms. I do have other more hush hush symptoms (do not read past this if you are easily offended) …
holy shit I just want to have sex all the damn time, seriously and weird things set me off.
thirsty as fuck
I think I had heartburn today for the first time in my life
Yes, I did crave vanilla yogurt with Cheddar cheese
I can’t stop burping
lots of cramping
I lost some weight… (finally!) about 2 weeks ago and have thus gained it back plus, with a vengeance.
I’m exceptionally moody and tired, but I were those things before I got pregnant.
Making my first prenatal visit soon. I’m very happy and still in shock, I don’t think anyone… even the new doctor I was seeing expected me to get pregnant this quick.
We had good timing I guess. I think it was the combination of the hsg test and the10,000ml hcg shot I took early in september.
Is It too much to ask that people respect my work schedule and leave my house at midnight on fight night?
No I legitimately want an answer to this. Someone please send me a fuckin answer.
We have it every Sunday at our house, basically because my husband wants it at our house. I’ve tried rearranging the day and I’ve tried to get him to have it at another persons house sometimes but no.
And every Sunday he says it will be from 7 to midnight and every fuxking Sunday he asks me if it’s okay if every one stays later and I can’t say no because he asks in front f everyone or calls me if I’m upstairs like an ass hole.
Well it’s really not okay, I only have to be up at 5 so I can work at 7 at a job I’m kinda walking on egg shells with as it is.
is it too much To fucking ask!? And every damn morning it’s such a surprise to him that I’m fucking pissed off even though I expressed myself to him.
Nevermind he hates cuddling, and everything is when he wants it to happen, never mind that he can say no when he doesn’t want something, but he finds ways around when I say no. Never mind he can buy whatever the fuck he wants and whenever I buy myself something its the fuxking end of the world…
So seriously in your honest opinion am I being a selfish bitch by asking people to leave at a certain time so I can get enough sleep to function during the day?
Today I feel like a fuck up, a loser, someone who no one cares about.
I feel like a selfish bitch, I feel lethargic and lazy
I just feel forgotten and overlooked.
Incompetent, unimportant, and despite all this empty.
I feel like my life is going no where, and for the first time in years. I feel like I cant change my situation I’m not in control and I suck, so much so that I feel like I won’t be able to stand living like this for the rest of my life, for the first time in a long time I want to die. I really really want to die.
I’m not suicidal, I’m not going to kill myself.
Can’t someone want to die and not be suicidal?
I just don’t want to live. I’ll talk about this with someone, I’m selfish I like to talk about myself, but I’m never quite capable of admitting just how far I’ve gotten in my own self loathing. I’m just a coward… Whatever.
Well there’s nothing left to do but go to sleep, and I’ll wake up tomorrow and maybe i’ll feel this way and maybe I won’t but for now things just… Suck